Things are gonna get brighter

I looked at my blog today and checked out the comments. It's nice to know that people are reading this, and that some of you feel the same way I do sometimes. I'm not alone in my neuroses!!!**

Tuesday and yesterday left me feeling mostly spazzed out again, prompting me to change my MSN name to Stressbomb. Today isn't as bad, but my neck is so incredibly stiff I feel as if something fell on it. nb. Stress manifests itself in my body in many ways, but most often it is in stiff muscles, particularly my neck. Sometimes when I get super-stressed my shoulders creep up and up and up until I've had friends tell me that they're up around my ears and they have to force them down for me! Breathe girl!!! I KNOW I should do yoga, but as my previous blogs would indicate - who's got the time?

Briefly, on Tuesday I had my interview at Justice Canada and it went very poorly. I had no idea how to prepare and so had no idea they would be asking me legal questions and/or questions that I figure I don't need to know unless they give me the job. i.e. What is in the Canada Gazette and how is it organized? (Um, new laws and stuff? I have no idea how it's organized! I don't care!) What are the three ways a law comes into force after it is enacted? Um....... What happens to a bill after it passes through Parliament? Uh...... Yeah, I felt really stupid. The rest of the interview was situational and I think I did okay with that. I covered my ass by saying that although I realize I didn't do well on the legal-type questions I applied for the job based on my editing experience and I was very capable of learning if given the opportunity. *sigh*

Yesterday I met with the woman at ICCS and I went in today to start volunteering. It's mostly doing general office stuff that they don't have enough staff to work on. People seem really nice. And it's related to my degree, subject-wise, so that' s good. I think I'm really going to like it and it's going to be awesome on my resume. I just hope that work doesn't interfere with it - sounds silly, I know, but it's better experience than some of the jobs I'll get with the temp agencies, no doubt. Speaking of that, I went to ExcelHR yesterday. They are much busier and far more professional than Randstad, although that doesn't necessarily make them better. Got my security clearance started, and I hope that gets me government contracts becauses the money is good and so are the opportunities. But yesterday really wore me down. The one good thing is that I ran into my sister at lunch and she took me out to Subway. I like that we get to see each other like that sometimes, sort of randomnly during the week. It's nice to have some family here.

That's enough from me today. I'm going to relax for a bit then get ready to head back out into the rain to see my boy at his house. We've rented Pirates of the Carribbean (for his Keith Richards a la Johnny Depp fix) and because it's a fun movie and probably have supper and do some staring deep into each other's eyes, etc. etc. Haha. Yup, we're still gross, although we're past the "don't let him see the side of you that is bitchy, tired, short-tempered" and I sort of let it all hang out. And although it's caused some problems, so far he's still here. Amazingly. Oh my gosh he's just so good to me I hope this continues to work. Have a good day all. Although it's rainy and gross, mintyfresh is right and the days are getting longer and the sun will shine and the birds will sing, and there are always kittens. :P



**An aside to one of you who reads my blog: Harold, where are you??????? I miss you!! I got your email about your move, but I need you to post what has been going on in your life!!!! I hope everything is okay. It sounds as though it is, but very busy. Hang in there kid.