It's 8:00 on a cool Saturday morning. I'm awake, the sleep still stuck in the corners of my eyes, my hair a mass of unruly curls, my body still not fully warm from a night of hot/cold/not enough sleep/hot/cold/worry/everything is okay again. It's funny how when woken up in the night one's mind can make such imaginative leaps with things that are not such a large issue. But in the dark subconscious of sleep/almost sleep, simple things take on complex meanings and everything little becomes big. Like bugs, or monsters, or noises, or phrases that really don't mean anything out of the ordinary. Then, in the light of morning, awakening, clarity comes creeping in, slowly, the door opening, a welcome slip under the sheets, a cuddle, the sense of relief that things are back to "normal" again. My mind does funny things sometimes. I marvel and rail against it sometimes, it's tendency to take me on a bumpy ride of ups and downs and too many quick swerves, making my stomach do not nice things, my heart pumping too fast, pupils dilated, wondering, when will this end? Yet, it does end. Eventually. Thank god.

Today will be a long day, because I don't think I can go back to sleep, but now, in the early morning hours, I will enjoy my alone time. The weekend has such possibilities, and I know there are a million things that should get done. I will try to do them all, I will get discouraged, but in the end even if I accomplish only a few things, it will be good. See friends, tidy a bit, keep myself healthy. Not a huge order, but an important to-do list. Let's see how it goes.