The sun is setting and it's casting a lovely orange glow through my living room window. I'm tired, and should probably get something ready for supper, but I'm feeling apathetic about what to eat. I'm somewhat out of sorts today, not sure why. Went shopping with my friend S. Shopping is both cathartic and stressing for me. Stressing for all the obvious reasons, things don't fit, not enough money, etc., etc.. But it is also stressing because it makes me start to feel badly that I'm not "fashionable" enough, or cute enough, or whatver enough. Enough for whom? For what? I don't know really.

These feelings of uncertainty and depression have been surfacing a lot lately. Mostly since I've finished my research paper.