My emotions are really throwing me for a loop lately. I can be surrounded by love and support and still I falter, tears flowing out of me as though a faucet were broken, not even being able to explain what's wrong. Not sure that I would be understood, even if I could. My life feels like I am at a crossroads right now - my road had been straight ahead, perhaps filled with Island potholes along the way - the kind that appear with no warning signs and make you think you're about to be swallowed up. I've managed to negotiate them all, but the road has turned from badly paved, to gravelwith no smooth tracks, and I can see the fork ahead.

If it were possible to render myself in two, declaring for both of me to journey a while and then, at a fixed point, journey back, compare notes, and decide which way is best, I would do that. But even wishful thinking can't make it so, and I'm left to feel the mounting apprehension of all the questions everyone asks themselves - what now? What next?

Stress is taking its toll on my body once again. My neck muscles are hard as rocks, I can't remember the last time I took a full breath that filled up my lungs completely, my stomach is sore, I have a constant headache, and my eyes are constantly on the verge of filling up, sometimes overflowing.

I've been through this enough times to know that this too will pass, and it will be okay again. Until then, I stare at the crossroad, trying to decide which way to turn, which direction I want to choose for my life.