Time, money, and dirt

So last night I had one of those moments where I discovered something about myself that I somehow didn't already know...but totally should have seen all the signs. My friends and I were out for a farewell meal to a couple of colleagues in the program (Emjay & Doublekay) who have been awesome friends and are moving to Kingston. Inevitably, discussion of our papers, and methods of dealing with the papers, and work, etc. came up, and my friend Vee suggested that all of us, even if we don't admit it, are Type-A personalities. For whatever reason, I had considered having a type-A personality a less-than-cool quality, and tried denying that I was type-A, and then Emjay gave an appropriate example of, "Oh, even though I don't want to do this thing, if close the door on it now, I'll close like a million other doors, and then what will I do? and then, and then, and then?..." Ugh. Point taken. I totally obsess like that, from little issues, right up to bigger, more important life questions. So scared to admit that I do not have control over some things, which is not necessarily great, but it is, nevertheless, a fact of life.

I looked up type-A personalities, and I found this line, which makes me laugh: "Type A folks have major issues around three key areas: time, money and dirt." Gah! It's like it's me to a tee! I stress about time, yet am always late, I worry about money, yet am okay that I don't make a ton of it (as long as I have enough to survive, and I always have), and I don't like getting dirty, but if because cleaning involves getting dirty, that doesn't happen that often either!! But, like with my astrological sign, I am totally one way, but have tendencies to another. I'm supposed to be a Capricorn, and I can see it for so many aspects of my life, but in other ways, I'm the antithesis of the sign. So what does that say about me? Am I just one great big bundle of contradictions?? And if I am, why can I not just accept that and be okay with my quirks and idiosyncracies?

My meeting with my supervisor went...okay yesterday. Not great, but not bad. So I really need to get cracking on it so I can get a decent second draft done and wow him with my revision abilities. Ri-ight. I just need to finish the paper so I can relax again. Or at the very least, focus my stress on another area of my life, like what am I going to do with the rest of it!!!!